2025.08.08
mood: relaxed (◍ ◡ ᴗ ◡◍;;)
song: Satellite Lovers - CENTRAL PARK
this is my first diary entry of august! *✶<(｡◕ ᴗ ◕｡)>✶*
i was too busy for this moment because of playing genshin impact and really got addicted that i cant get of alots of sleep recently. im currently started working my school projects since examinations is coming up next week.
oh yes, next week is examinations and this is week where i have to study all the lessons and finish som school projects. oh my, i think im gonna multitasking again and reduce playing genshin and its time to touch grass girlie to focus on academics more. *NEVER* ( ˶♡ ∀ ♡˶ )
im playing genshin impact everyday after schools and currently working in the sunspray summer event. i was totally hooked up this event for the sake of primos and skipping inazuma for good from that sussy heizou baka. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH okay okay, the mini games were honestly crucial, especially the shooting cactus which led me lot of attempts to try again just to have 10 hp remaining after the game. but i dont usually give up and keep on playing, just like getting my dream 4-star dahlia on my acc. i got bennett's skin yesterday in my main acc although i dont obtained this character yet. :') i knew bennett is originally from natlan because of his past backstory and oh boy, thats why he was feeling lucky because he was blessed and loved by his parents in skies, and his friends and adventurers really cheered and adored him in the summer adventure. this backstory of his' almost teared me up and mixed with joy also. im aready in adventure rank 25 and saved up 2800 primogems in both accounts thanks to geforce. i started to use geforce becauce my classmate recommended me to play genshin impact with this cloud platform since it was better than genshin cloud and has unlimited sessions to play. yes, there still one hour time limit and i have to start another session to play the game again.
speaking of my classmates, my classmate currently apologized to me last week and he realized and understand how i was feeling rough ive been through after my friends are gone and im having a hard time to deal those painful memories and negative emotions around him. he knew that i was playing genshin since im showing my great love for venti. i accepted his apology and also apologized to him for my mistakes that made him ignore me, but i forget all about it a long time ago. i also seek forgiveness and apologized to my "friend" or my chingu let's say, from the other class now for my mistakes and faults ive done to him in the past and realizing that im not a good friend to him. its alright and at least, i learned my lesson and accepted the truth although it sounded painful at first. i know its a short apology since the full words was explained on the letter and suddenly lost it, he accepted it and understood my words and even gave me a fist bump in return like we used to in old times. i dont want to talk about this further because i might get emotional flashbacks if i remember them again. although were no longer friends, i will still support and love him from behind through prayers and wishes.
it feels like this is the season of forgiveness and reconciliation where its like the withered flowers once again bloomed and lightened up as its starting to have new life again. i realized that life is beautiful when im all alone that i finally found freedom and peace for myself again.